tonight i feelso empty,
like i’m floating in deep, still water…
i’ve already given up hope,
and fear of bein’ alone, or
atleast i don’t think about it anymore.
it’s been a year since
the man i loved left me,
and took away everything
i cared for and believed in.
yes, it’s been a great struggle…
and i guess I’ve failed myself.
for tonight i walk this earth
as a mere instrument of man.
a flesh without a soul,
and a woman of uncertain value.
it’s not that i’m not over him,
it’s not that i’m still in love.
it’s just that i couldn’t figure
if i still deserve to be loved….